We had a good week. I was struggling with a virus for most of the week and then Andy caught it towards the end, but we had a good time celebrating Halloween at trunk or treat and at home! Harvey is, of course, a ninja turtle. Max went with the same costume he used last year, which was great since it was pricey. Beverly and Maverick teamed up for a Zelda themed costume. She was Zelda, Maverick was link. Since half of our kids went as Zelda characters I dressed our car up as the Hyrule castle. The kids had a great time “trunk-or-treating” with their friends and I loved watching them having fun! I’ve been feeling a little sad this week. Probably because I rarely left the house because I wasn’t feeling well which meant if I did a workout, it was at home and not as intense as my normal gym workouts. But this sickness left me not sleeping well. Partly from a lot of headaches and stuffiness, but also it seemed to come with nightmares. None that really stood out to me, but I do remember being very sad that I couldn’t talk to my grandma Ila any more. I feel like I got a little shorted on getting to know her. She died in her 70’s when I was just graduating from high school, but she had been struggling with Alzheimers for about 7 years before that, so she hadn’t been herself for quite some time. I also think that it would feel different to sit down (without the chaos of young children) and just chat with my grandparents. To reminisce of their “good ol’ days” and learn from their triumphs and mistakes. I want to get to know more of their personal interests and out looks on life. I am so grateful for the hope of the life after, because I do feel that I will get these opportunities to sit down with them and laugh, remember, and learn from each other.
Taking a step away from the malaise I felt this week, I really feel blessed. I have an amazing family both close and far. I was raised by wonderful people. I have my best friend as my eternal companion. I have close friends from high school that are still dear to me, and new friends who I adore who live in my own neighborhood. My kids are healthy and happy, and aside from this week of a virus, my health is really good too. I feel very blessed to have the life I have, especially when the world around us seems to be crumbling. It is a blessing to be able to rise above my own struggles and reach out to others. I really want to help them, but helping them probably brings me more joy than I give out. I hope y’all have a great Halloween!